The Wedding

This past weekend, I was invited to go to a wedding with a friend of mine. With everything going on, I figured it would be good for me to get out of town for a few days with some friends, have a good time and just get my mind off of things.

Never once did I put a second thought into the event I was going to. By nature, I love weddings. I can put on a fancy dress, and fun accessories and high high heels, have a few drinks, let loose and have a good time.

This is not to say that I didn't have a good time, or wear fancy clothes or drink way too much and pass out 4 times. I did all of those things (yes, I am slightly embarrassed). The part that I forgot to consider would be the wedding itself. The beautiful bride, the gleaming groom, the vows. The vows were the killer. Weddings are all very much the same.. for richer..for poorer..for better..for worse.. what god brings together, let no man separate and all that bullshit.

Please don't read me wrong, I am very happy for the newlyweds. I don't believe that no marriage could work just because mine didn't, I just had no idea it would be so hard to hear 2 people who are deeply and truly in love say the words that I once said, and meant every word of it, to have it only fall apart a few years later.

I've accepted the fact that some days will be harder then others. I've accepted the fact that things have changed and will forever be undone. I've relearned who the person I thought I knew is, and I'm creating MYSELF into the person I should have been long ago.