Lesson One: fragile vs angry

Lesson One: Keep your fragile, your hurt for when you are alone. Angry is Sexier.

Yes, I know it may sound odd but to me it makes the most sense.

I let very few people see a certain side of me. I keep it hidden, keep it to myself, and may bring it out in therapy every once in a great while. I'm not exactly ashamed, but when I look at the person I'd want to be with, it would be the one who can make light of the situation, laugh at herself, and maybe look at the situation from a bitter sarcastic angle rather then the girl who falls apart at the seams, which we all do from time to time. Thats the me I keep to myself.

Since becoming single, I have dated. I've dated a little, and fallen a bit, but I know that I have to get up even if the climb is so far. I've come a long way, baby, but I've got even further to go.

I have a lot more to say, but I don't know that now is the time, now is the right emotional moment for me to get the words right, or to keep that fragile one away cause even though I'm alone, I still don't want to hang out with that person. A few days, a few more...maybe then I can think straight enough to put it all on the table. Lesson one makes more sense with lesson 2. stay tuned.